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something triggered me today,wat r da boundaries amongst friends…between gal n gal…gal n guy, n im talking abt friendship here not those relationship thingy…

im really not da type of person who opens out to every tom, dick or harry who comes up to me, for me to really open up n talk to a person is not very hard but i must feel comfortable wit da person n this person gives me a feeling which i cant really describe but wat i know is da person would wana listen to me n would understand n most importantly will not judge me(which of course definately my darling could do!)

wat im thinking is ppl tend to take u for granted once ur close to them…they expect u to understand them without thinking abt my feelings…or maybe i give ppl da feeling tat im da type of person who would put other ppl 1st rather then myself(which i dont think tats da case…in fact im a rather selfish person i would say)im just saying maybe ppl should be more sensitive b4 they say something or else u would hurt …u wouldnt understand da feeling if u dint experience it urself..im just saying..be sensitive to ur frens or else one fine day u’ll find out tat ur frens r gona cuz u said something wrong…

but when ur trying to be sensitive u tend to filter out some details n ur friends wont understand ur situation fully….so its a lose- lose situation…its a skill to be mastered which i think i haf mastered only 50% sigh…

so there it is.. something to ponder abt for a couple of mins…at least couple of mins would help to maintain ur friendship

paris…is da city which im at right now..i look out of my window, even da buildings da architecture is simply lovely…just taking a stroll makes u feel like a million bucks!yeah…im exagerating a bit..but its is one of my fav city’s after london which i like for da same reason n also cuz my best fren is there so we can meet up n bitch abt other ppl =p  n u must be thinking since i feel this way wat am i doing here in my hotel room writting my blog…its to early lar..LV also not opened yet…but da damage was done yesterday dy!

no, fyi flying is not at all glamorous…i would always say to those frens who always think tat my job is always like a hol tat its not as easy as u think so…its abt handling human being= da most complicated creature in da world= colleagues n pax..

but i must say i haf changed through these 2 years of flying due to human’s influences n of course myself…as i put on msn messenger " You can only be who you allow yourself to become" which i use to find very true..

one of da reason tat i actually "consider" quitting is cuz of this…i haf changed to a level which i dont like da so call ‘new me’ but i guess its my choice of being da ‘new me’ isnt it? but i dont like it so i am contradicting myself as always…its not da normal wat ppl think abt stewardess changes like being materialistic, for me i guess its da personality part which upsets me a lil, i always think of myself as someone who doesnt change easily n haf my own stands n will stick to it but  once u find out ur favourite quality tat u actualy like abt urself is gone its really kinda sad u know?would u say its my own choice, would u really say  "You can only be who you allow yourself to become" im not so sure abt tat anymore, i guess its really ur choice which path u wana take in life…something like tat…

well these days i haf taken bak my child hood hobby bak= reading! tats da leats i can do…yeah yeah im a boring old gal..but i  do appreciate a good book..i once couldnt put down a book even during dinner time..n for those of u who know me food is actually very important to chuen sam! hhmmmm…i guess only my bf knoes this ‘chuen sam doesnt really share food’ haha very ‘wai sek’ we often fight for food which is actually fun but as usual i win!u really shouldnt eat so much k my lkc…

ohhh btw i curled my hair…mummy said i look more mature..others say i look more feminine..suites me…i actually do like it…diff look n diff image for chuen sam! but i give myself 2-3 months b4 i straightened it bak..ahha so for those of u who never c me in curly locks mean u haf not seen me for at least 3 months dy…hehe