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standby…plz dont call me up…i dont wana work…shit,my phone wont ring..i was told some time ago da 1st few generations of da N70 has this prob..dint think of it much till these few weeks when i had standby n im afraid when control centre do call me on my hp i wont be able to be reached then ill be damned!woke up many many times last nite automatically to check whether there are any missed call..tats y i dint sleep well…n tats y i slept till 3 pm today..ahhaha..excuses..in my defence, i woke up 8 am da previous day to go c dentist..was so scared tat they really had to pull out my wisdom tooth but luckily at da moment its not necessary *phew* all smiles when i came out from da dentist’s place..ehhe..

called a couple of my frens to confirm my reunion thingy n they said they will make it n im happy…not normal happy but im actually happy..ppl do make an effort..so lets c who wil ‘fong fei kei’ on tat day..well im in charge of da venue..it will be in sbn but dono which place to go for dinner..this one a big headache cuz it needs to suite everyone in da group!anyway with my inteligence it wont be much of a prob when it comes to food..hah!

u know free ppl like me..think too much…off day nothing to do ar…when all da housemate also not around..da brains too free after sleeping sure think this think tat…many ppl ask me ‘how long ur gona fly?’ ill say i hope for most i hope is 5 years "wats ur plan after tat?" "i dono lar..for da moment i cant think of wat to do yet" tats not really wat is bugging my mind at da moment..i guess im a more emotional person rather then someone who’s always thinking abt da career…i always think tat my bf is da only person who can ‘tahan’ stand me!my bad temper and….well tat says it all..he is such a super duper cool guy who can stand me…im not bragging but my housemates always tell me tat n also tells me…" u ar..dont be so bad can..always show temper.." haha tats me…its actually a criteria when i was looking for a bf then n i found it so goto live with it! tats y i said ‘mou yok hou gau’…i was reading cleo n my horroscope actually asked me to go look for an affair n stop convincing myself tat its(my relationship) all well when it isnt…face reality..i wonder n ponder..hhmmm…deep down inside me i know i love him very very much n i do miss him a lot when im over here n he’s over there…not tat i haf a potential candidate to haf a love affair with but as human being dont tell me it would not even cross ur mind how isit like…if it doesnt cross ur mind then its good fer ya i would say!n after all da 3++ years…in da relationship i mean…half of da sparks haf gone…missing…dono where…there r still some i guess cuz we only c each other like 2 or 3 times a month but wat if we were working together at da same place n c each other everyday…hmm…i wonder how my fren got thru an 8 years relationship man!but everytime i ask him he never give me any tips also! huh!

as i was chatting on da phone wit one of my good frens,he said i c things very openly n differently these days..which i agree…from my point of view i c many things in da airline tat many ppl whether attached, engaged, married still haf a fling or an affair with someone else out there…which i think not only happen to ppl in da airline,but its just as common as ppl who work on ground…i mean nowadays when somebody tells me this person who haf been going out wit this other person for n-years is having an affair wit someone else..i would say ’so’ very normal wat…wat im saying is its really nothin to fuss abt cuz its none of ur business n im sure they haf their own reason for doing it whether da reason is a valid one or not its not for us to judge…but as human being we like to judge n gossip lar..tat is y my friend said i my view haf changed..but wat i told him is tats wat i think but for my ownself to do it is another thing..i may accept it in other ppl but for myself i dono whether i can accept it or not…i always think tat im not tat kinda person…but ohh well ppl do change…hopefully i wont change till there…

i was thinking since i had 1 of da weekends off end of this month…i wanted to haf a reunion wit my seremban friends n also some of my uniten frens…its so hard to reach them..everytime i go bak its seldom a weekend n when it is somebody would be bz..i always felt disapointed..but i do miss them…just chatting wit them for da good old times..i so wana organize something but i always haf this feeling of beeing disapointed tat eveybody will not try to make time or at least sacrifice something to get together..well wat can i say..anyhow ill try to do something n if nobody wana come ill eat all da food n get fat myself!hah!we shall c!